Girls

Girls I tell you. Its either you love 'em or hate 'em. I think that quote rings a shrill bell in my ear. I like this girl, and she has a boy friend. I like that girl and she doesnt have a boy friend but not interested to be with anyone for now. I tell you, I really feel like swearing now. Its as if some divine powers are telling me not to be with anyone(maybe its a Forever Single Curse-if there's one). Since my last ex, I have yet to be with anyone. I cant seem to connect well with anyone, and the one's I can mostly already have people that they like or they hate so they like no one. I really feel like swearing now.

WHY GOD??? WHY???

Probably, he thinks I am better suited for an arrange marriage(like those ancient practices that I use to find it stupid-I guess karma does come around). Maybe I am just hallucinating and not letting myself open up to people? Could it be? Oh damn it! I never knew, wanting to be in some damn relationship is so difficult. Or am I making it difficult?... I tell you taking up law a s a proffession makes me think and rethink what I think over and over again. I am getting paranoid because of it, thank you very much. Is it that hard to be in a relationship. I guess not being in one for the last two years, it is difficult for me to start a new one. Maybe it takes time. But seriously how long?

However, although I find myself writing all those down, I know I am a strong independent guy who knows that he does not need a lady to run his life. But I guess I do feel only with a girl, life will be more straight and better.

Oh fuck la!