Thursday, November 20, 2008

THE AMAZING RACE ASIA SEASON 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So my good friends A-Levels examinations are finally over. They would no more be studying for anything related to A-Levels. I wish them all the best for their results and their future undertakings now. Let me tell you, all of them have interesting ideas. Fashion empire, NGO for so many causes, flight attendent and God knows what else. Well have fun guys!


For me, I ended it June this year, never looked back a second and now venturing in my degree for Law. I dont know if this what I was born to do, but I am enjoying it.



Anyways, the reason I wrote this is to scream about the winner of The Amazing Race Asia Season 3(TARA S3)!!!!!WOOHOO!!!!If anyone does not know what this is, its the similar competition in America which is The Amazing Race. What this people do is, go to many countries around the world and try to accomplish a task to move on to another task which will take them to a whole different place. Friendship, loyalty, trust, and love are all tested here. Anyone hjoining this should be mentally, physically and emotionally strong. The winner for the past two seasons were MALAYSIAN!!!! This is the first time the Malaysians came on third and the winner is an all boys team and from Hong Kong(whatever Prash). I would like to congratulate Vince & Sam for winning this race like true champions. For the runner up, Geoff & Tish from Phillipines( I am guessing) thank you for entertaining us. ALthough, my whole family and most of my friends hatedf you Geoff but we cant deny, none the both of ya'll, there wouldnt be any source of entertainment for the show.

IDA & TANIA!!!!!I am so proud of you!!Please dont think that Malaysians are not proud of you. If anything we are full of pride knowing Malaysians will always be at the top for anything and that we are a bunch of helpful, considerate and excellent at team-work. And you showed it all. All the previous Malaysian teams have excellent team-work effort, and you are not left behind in that area. I know if you had not taken the wrong flight, the both of you would have reached first! Sadly, but not to worry. You both rocked!!!I was so inspired on how you both were at the last leg of the race. There was no tear, no looking-back, no regerets. You both were just seaping every moment of it, as if it were the best. I am honoured to be a Malaysian. Seeing all the previous Malaysian teams inclusive of this season, I have immense pride and respect for participants and for Malaysia. I have no idea whether many share my views, but I dont care.

YOU ROCK IDA & TANIA!!!!

(Last night, my friend and I were talking on our mobile and we were discussing about the TARA and he was telling me how it was now trying to get in excellent shape to be part of the game someday. He then told me he wanted to do it with me. And he added, "...but you have to loose more weight" and I replied "Look at AD & Fuzzie. She was fat but they manage top 4". And then he said "Yeah".

"When are we registering?")

Marriage for me



You know I have been so busy, I havent had the time to blog much. Classes, baking orders, exams, family. I tell you its so hectic. But I somehow manage to squeeze my time to blog today. I have a question for myself.

Will I ever get married?

I dont know how to answer that. I do wish someday to get married. But to live with someone my whole life? To be in bed with just one woman? Well its not like I am 'womanizer' who has bedded many women. But I dont know whether the whole being with one person is ok. But then again, being with many or constant changing is not what I want.

Do you really feel tied down after a marriage? To many asians, marriage is marrying into the family of the other, be it love-marriage or arange-marriage. That's why I dont want to get tied down like that. But thats hard. Having said that, I dont know if marrying a non-asian person would be the same or different. For me marriage is something you share everything with, the whole christian sense of "through health and sicknes, in bad and good till death do us apart" is so marvellous. Although, I as Muslim do not get the chance to say all this but I think I will still say to whomever I marry to.

The whole gender thing I am leaving it blank here. I guess I dont have a say in that. I truly believe its God's will. But definitely I know what kind of person I will get married too.

For me whether its love marriage or arrange marriage I am not sure. I wish it could be love-mariage but I dont know. No love found yet. I guess, that is again not for me to ponder or wonder. But ever since I was small reading cheesy love novels (yes I do read love novels) by Sidney Sheldon, Jeffry Archer and sorts the whole thing gets into me. I want to be in those deep deep dreamy love tales. I want to have a tale on my own. Someday where I can this love tale to my children and grandchildren. Have you ever dreamt of that kind of love? Where when you bathe, the water doesnt shi
eem to be wet enough,when you eat the water doesnt seem full enough, when you sleep you'd never be able to sleep well. This is a malay saying.

But marriage leads to alot of problems. Conflicts, disagreements and envy. Well nowadays people are more sensitive towards things. Not many are able to take things lightly and every single thing is a law, every thing leads to fights. The style of bringing up the kids will clash, be it boy or girl. The way to decorate the house will be different. The things to buy. The thing to do. I tell you after marriage things always change. Its very rare, for things to remain the same.

For me I want all kinds of marriage. Being Malay in Malaysia I must have a Malay wedding. But I also want to have a Indian style wedding. I want to have a christian style of wedding. Omit the priest only. I want a garden, beach, spring, winter, autumn,hotel style, over the top and simple wedding. I know it may be too much to ask, I know it may be too little to ask.,I also want the wedding to be done in other countries. Well I have alot of ideas. Dont let me get started. What I just mentioned was just tip of the ice berg.

Anyways, I do not know where I see myself in 10 years to come. But marriage is not on my mind now. I just want to be in a few relationships as possible, and learn from its mistakes.

Period.

(African tribe style would be exotic!)

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Mumtaj's ON THE AIR

So I was flipping through today's newspaper and I came across this title called "New Women" by Mumtaj Begum.

So there she went on criticising a new on slot show that's called "Big Shots". She goes on to tell that the guys in this show are portraying that man has lost their places. She keeps on going by saying that the guys here are straight so they do not see the kind of audience that the show intends to cater too.

Its so interesting to note, that this movie critic is stating something that is rather quite awkwardly wrong. I mean how many of us have watched so many chick-flicks that we are bored of it? If its not Gossip Girl, 90210, Gilmore Girls its what then? 40 year old menopaused women who are to busy thinking about their shoes and their sod love/marriage life like Sex and the City or Lipstick Jungle. I am a male junkie and I do love the whole chick-flick scene, but sometimes I do wish to watch something that I can relate to as a male. That I am comfortable watching without thinking, damn that girls not wearing her bra or that he shouldn't have kissed her so soon. I do want to watch shows that portray men has feelings too, as cheesy as it may sound, the fact is, men too have feelings and issues that we need to talk too. And car, girls and sports is not all we do discuss.

"Womenfolk would most probably be turned off by these characters' constant yapping about their feelings and who(and what) drives them crazy". Doesn't this line sounds so familiar? Aren't all women like that? The constant yapping that leads to the breakdown of a marriage. The constant yapping that gets most men raged and furious. Seeing it, that it has yet to register in to the grey matters of Mumtaj, she doesn't know that women are the constant irritator. Having said that, at least this tells that women gets put off if a man talks all day long, don't you think men too(and mostly yes) gets put off when women talk all day long. Although that has been practices for so so long, a change is a needed. And since "A change has come-Obama", its good if something different is shown to public. So maybe women should learn how to keep their mouths and to keep it at where it belongs and cease to open it. Because, if according to Mumtaj hopes and dreams, silent and strong men and yapping women makes a perfect couple. No wonder we see alot of divorce and murder cases happening in families, we now know where the idea derives from.

She goes on to say that "for goodness sake, they don't even chat about sports; not once." First of all, has she watched ALL the episodes? Second, does not talking about sports makes you a lesser man then others? "Apparently modern men scrutinise their indiscretions, and their marriage in minute detail. Oh, where have all the cowboys gone?" Frankly, to me, this lady has to be sent back to medieval times. Here in the 21st century when women are fighting so hard for their rights and their respect in a family, where people around the world are trying to get man to be more involved in their family welfare then just leaving it to the wife to do it all, where every one's hoping for man to be more sensitive to women's feelings and are more approachable. Here, this women goes on talking about cowboys and how its wrong to talk about marriage. I am guessing this women has either a bad marriage or is not married at all. If this movie is trying to show the true sense of modern man and in one way or rather trying to educate the younger men to be more willful to their partners, then I see no harm in a man being that way. Heck, I would applaud that man.

Mumtaj says the actors "are just transparently fake". So which actor or actress aren't? Looking at her moronic example, I am guessing for a "avid" movie(all the likes) watcher she doesn't watch Lipstick Jungle does she? Three menauposing women who are in the prime of their lives who talk nothing but fashion, love, sex, and spends no more then five minutes in their office(one has the office in her own house) thinking about fashion, love and sex and then back to the whole drama again. For someone who is expected to know what food she's chewing, Mumtaj's merely spitting out rubbish. I never liked this lady. Not because of who she is and what not, but because I never found her criticism to be anything but stupidly wrong. She gives credit when there's none to give, and spares the rod when theres aplenty to be said for. There's this other guy that Star Publications's hire, Alan or Alex or something. Now, he atleast knows his work. When he criticises, at least I know he is right and although some points may differ, but that's expected. This man shows his knowledge and debates out his point on logic. But this lady know two hoots about what shes talking and relates it mostly to her daily dosage of fantasies and wonderland(my apologies to Alice). I even go on to wonder why does Star even bother hiring her still. They would save alot on their money if they fire here. I don't judge this merely by my own thoughts. I do discuss with my friends, relatives and parents about the movie and I read out her views. NOT ONE have ever agreed with her. If to say she has helped to increase the movie go-ers for indie films would be lying to say so. Her criticism are barely healthy for good Hollywood films, what more if its locally. Look, I am not telling her to be bias or anything like that, but I just find that Mumtaj does not know(most of the time) what shes jabbering about and that's really sad as it makes a mockery of our movie criticiser(if there's such a thing). If Miss Mumtaj finds herself worthy as a good critique and that shes good in her movie knowledge, then maybe she should volunteer herself as a judge to the Cannes or something, that's if they want her.

I don't know much about this show to begin with, but at least if I know it was something men should watch and learn from I am more then willing to lend a help in promoting it. Coming from a women, Mumtaj has failed to acknowledge something that could have been great for her gender. If I were a woman, wouldn't I be happy if my man would worry about the marriage the way I do? Wont I be happy if he thinks about the cash shortage like I do? Wont I be happy knowing that my man is not cheating on me but actually worrying about the tinniest detail about our marriage? If Mumtaj wants her silent and strong man who drinks beer all day long, rubs his belly and farts in the house while waiting for her to come back home after a hard-days work to microwave her frozen ready-made meal and have a dirty sleazy sex, then well with all due respect she may go and find such a man and marry him. For me, if I were a woman, I rather have a Big Shot then a Cowboy at any given moment.

Well I guess, different people have different views. Although she does say that "the series acknowledges that men too have feelings, they get hurt and are not boorish pigs", but from her article I think she wants men to be like that. Its only then they are called MEN. Again, I would like to extend my humble point of view here. The Star Publications should either move her to another section of the newspaper or cease to work for your company. Anything as long as we movie watchers and go-ers do not have sit through and read mind numbing criticism's that are not worth our iota's to read upon.

One last thing she said is "As stereotypical as it may sound, here's hoping that the days of silent and strong men are not totally over. Because seeing heterosexual men turning into the "new women" is quite a painful experience". As much as I would like to trash her on this sentence, I think I have only one thing to say about this: She must have been drunk and sober about her sad life and her sad man when she wrote this. You are prayed for tonight, Mumtaj.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

My secret Ambition

As I sit down and write this I constantly wonder what I would like to write today. When my laptop's not with me, I have so many things floating in my mind thzt I wish I can immediately write down. But alas, it doesnt work that way. Now as I type this down, I am frankly blank in my mind. I dont see a topic that I can write about.

Now I have something in mind.

I have a dream-Martin Luther King.

That man has a dream, not of my reach but something for his people. I too have a dream. My dream is not to see justice and fairness and being judged by character etc. My dream is big. I have my secret dream. Here, dream I mean is ambition. Boy, do I have a secret ambition. I am guessng many people have that. I dotnt think all doctors wished they were doctors or road sweepers dream of sweeping floors. I would not like to state my secret dream here, because then it wont be a secret anymore right? I have my sights on my dream. I know I can do well. But I have so many things stoping me. My family, my education and mainly, my self. My inner me wants to break loose, go crazy and just like taking a rented a car and driving all the way to Vegas. But my outer me, the harder shell always comes me down and tells me that things will fall in place as it may have it.

I am 19. I no longer know when "things will fall in place" anymore. Age is a bening factor in any industry. I do want to study, I do want to be a lawyer, but my heart, mind and body wants something else. I dont know whether will I ever be able to be "it" or join "it", but its something I want to do. I dont know, my family constantly things I wont do well, so does all of my friends. Not one has been positive unless to suck up to me or pretends to be nice. Genuine thoughts are so hard to come by. I wonder whether my secret ambition will alwyas remain a secret never known. Someone one said that, "when you're the drive of a car, if you dont press the gas pedal, it will not move". It sounds so well thought, but I wonder if I were to press the gas pedal, will the car move to fast?Will the car explode?Or will someone pull the brakes immediately?

I am a hard thinker. When I want something I look at all sides. Sometimes I wonder whether my weaknes is that, but when I look at it again, it could be my strength because I make sure its perfect in always. But I guess, if its meant to be, its meant to be and nothing can change it. All we may hope is the best. I have occasionally mentioned it to my parents, but to no avail have I received a response positive enough to make me move my ass towards achieveing it. Everything is all laid down by my parents. Its just for me to follow the road taken. I dont like taking the road not taken, I am anti-risk. But once in awhile, I want to experience the queer life. I want to know, what is it like being in that road. It might not be all pefect and tared, but it sure beats the boringness I would receive if I were to take the other. In life, if you want to be successful in your career, family, health, you have to mean it. You have to enjoy it. You can not regret it any point of time. Maybe thats a little hard put, but thats the core of it. I dont know whether law is my passion. I dont know whether I will be happy doing it. I may be successful in it, but living it as if its the best thing I can do in my life? I think not.

Of course at this age, everyone says I have a choice. I can still choose. But frankly, I dont know whether I have that luxury. Maybe I would. Maybe if I try hard enough, push hard enough, rebel hard enough I might make my secret dream/ambition to come true.

One thing for sure, it will not be tomorrow.

Haih.....

Monday, November 10, 2008

November 9

I always thought the number '9' was such an auspicious number to me. Sadly, I am not so sure now. Its so awkward. The number that I always have some luck with has now had God showing me that luck might always be there and that it could just be mere numbers.

Do you know what happened?

I met with an accident yesterday. But do you know where? Right exactly oppsite my house. There was a pre-Xmas gathering at my front neighbour house and they had many cars parked everywhere.

So that night at 10.30pm my aunt called me to go and get some food from her house. I was abit reluctant, but an Aunt is still an Aunt. So I got wore my shorts to over my boxers and when into my car, and reversed it slowly. It all happened so fast.

I am not sure whether my radio was so loud that I couldnt here the censor signal of my car or whether the signal was not functioning. I reversed, I think I was too fast and I just hit the green Isawara at the door of his left hand passeneger. It was such a huge dent. As huge as a size of a foot ball. I was so nervous, I nearly cried. But I carried myself with "glitz and glamour". I got out of the car, looked at my Dad and he told me "Its ok, you can go". And I asked him are you sure, and he said yes. I looked at my mom and she just gave me a blank stare. So typical of moms. I got in the car and drove off. Of course, I was on sticks and stones when I was in the car. I was like a nervous wreck. I think I nearly cried.

When to my auntie's house, paid my dew's, got the food and rushed back home, thinking about the worst of scenarious.

1)I would go to jail.
2)I would have to fist-fight witht the neighbour for wrecking his car.
3)My 'P' license would get pulled back.
4)My parents will ground me from the usage of cars and I will never drive till I am 40 and still a virgin.
5)I would have to move out of the house, be a hobo, become a drug-dealer and lead a very dangerous and sad grimful life.

Alas, I wen back home and all was well. It was as if I just had a bad dream. Although the car was still there, and so was the "football" dent, my parents were inside watching TV. I came in with much grace, and performed a "Parvati character from Devdas" at that moment onwards. I fell to the ground, put my face into my hands, and acted out some crying scenes. I looked up all sad and messed up, I gave this puppy-dog eyes to my mom and dad and told them it was an accident and I did not it was there. My mom said I was lying and she went on talking about the way I drive and how she knew this day would come(no wonder she was come and composed as Margaret Thatcher). I quickly went in to the room, grabbed my mobile and called Calvin. That bastard hanged me up. So I called Mithu. Boy, was he a savior!

He made me laugh, and he told me about his accidents and how I shouldnt be worying about it least bit, god I love him. And he's the one who introduced me to the word 'glitz and glamour' in carrying myself. I tell you if I had not talked to him, I would have most probably dried up like a fig.

I got out of the room and mom told me to be honest and tell the car owner. When he came out, I told my dad, he got up and by the time he went out the Iswara was gone. Well, we couldnt do anything. Mom was raving on and on about God and his wrath and how we should have told the guy, he might have been in need or something. But you know what happened?

I turned into Oprah at that moment, looked at my Mom and told her "I could have actually been the savior of his life, maybe it was meant for me to knock his car, so that it'll save his life."

She stared at me. Rest her case and when to sleep. I was very much guilt-ridden and guilt-felt. So to ease it, I took my pillows, bolster, blanket and when it to my moms room, closed the door.



Confession: The accident has showed me that it can happen at my own "backyard". It took me an instant to know that it was God's way of telling me I should always be careful and that I am doing something wrong, mainly in the way I drive. I cannot challenge him adn take things for granted. Today it could have just been material, next it could be limbs and nerves. We never know. I am now a more humble and careful person when it comes to my driving.

---------------------------------BUT THE REST REMAINS BITCHY-------------------------

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

I Have A Dream - Rev. Martin Luther King

In 1950's America, the equality of man envisioned by the Declaration of Independence was far from a reality. People of color — blacks, Hispanics, Asians — were discriminated against in many ways, both overt and covert. The 1950's were a turbulent time in America, when racial barriers began to come down due to Supreme Court decisions, like Brown v. Board of Education; and due to an increase in the activism of blacks, fighting for equal rights.

Martin Luther King, Jr., a Baptist minister, was a driving force in the push for racial equality in the 1950's and the 1960's. In 1963, King and his staff focused on Birmingham, Alabama. They marched and protested non-violently, raising the ire of local officials who sicced water cannon and police dogs on the marchers, whose ranks included teenagers and children. The bad publicity and break-down of business forced the white leaders of Birmingham to concede to some anti-segregation demands.

Thrust into the national spotlight in Birmingham, where he was arrested and jailed, King helped organize a massive march on Washington, DC, on August 28, 1963. His partners in the March on Washington for Jobs and Freedom included other religious leaders, labor leaders, and black organizers. The assembled masses marched down the Washington Mall from the Washington Monument to the Lincoln Memorial, heard songs from Bob Dylan and Joan Baez, and heard speeches by actor Charlton Heston, NAACP president Roy Wilkins, and future U.S. Representative from Georgia John Lewis.

King's appearance was the last of the event; the closing speech was carried live on major television networks. On the steps of the Lincoln Memorial, King evoked the name of Lincoln in his "I Have a Dream" speech, which is credited with mobilizing supporters of desegregation and prompted the 1964 Civil Rights Act. The next year, King was awarded the Nobel Peace Prize.

The following is the exact text of the spoken speech, transcribed from recordings.


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I am happy to join with you today in what will go down in history as the greatest demonstration for freedom in the history of our nation.

Five score years ago, a great American, in whose symbolic shadow we stand today, signed the Emancipation Proclamation. This momentous decree came as a great beacon light of hope to millions of Negro slaves who had been seared in the flames of withering injustice. It came as a joyous daybreak to end the long night of their captivity.

But one hundred years later, the Negro still is not free. One hundred years later, the life of the Negro is still sadly crippled by the manacles of segregation and the chains of discrimination. One hundred years later, the Negro lives on a lonely island of poverty in the midst of a vast ocean of material prosperity. One hundred years later, the Negro is still languishing in the corners of American society and finds himself an exile in his own land. So we have come here today to dramatize a shameful condition.

In a sense we have come to our nation's capital to cash a check. When the architects of our republic wrote the magnificent words of the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence, they were signing a promissory note to which every American was to fall heir. This note was a promise that all men, yes, black men as well as white men, would be guaranteed the unalienable rights of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

It is obvious today that America has defaulted on this promissory note insofar as her citizens of color are concerned. Instead of honoring this sacred obligation, America has given the Negro people a bad check, a check which has come back marked "insufficient funds." But we refuse to believe that the bank of justice is bankrupt. We refuse to believe that there are insufficient funds in the great vaults of opportunity of this nation. So we have come to cash this check — a check that will give us upon demand the riches of freedom and the security of justice. We have also come to this hallowed spot to remind America of the fierce urgency of now. This is no time to engage in the luxury of cooling off or to take the tranquilizing drug of gradualism. Now is the time to make real the promises of democracy. Now is the time to rise from the dark and desolate valley of segregation to the sunlit path of racial justice. Now is the time to lift our nation from the quick sands of racial injustice to the solid rock of brotherhood. Now is the time to make justice a reality for all of God's children.

It would be fatal for the nation to overlook the urgency of the moment. This sweltering summer of the Negro's legitimate discontent will not pass until there is an invigorating autumn of freedom and equality. Nineteen sixty-three is not an end, but a beginning. Those who hope that the Negro needed to blow off steam and will now be content will have a rude awakening if the nation returns to business as usual. There will be neither rest nor tranquility in America until the Negro is granted his citizenship rights. The whirlwinds of revolt will continue to shake the foundations of our nation until the bright day of justice emerges.

But there is something that I must say to my people who stand on the warm threshold which leads into the palace of justice. In the process of gaining our rightful place we must not be guilty of wrongful deeds. Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hatred.

We must forever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and discipline. We must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into physical violence. Again and again we must rise to the majestic heights of meeting physical force with soul force. The marvelous new militancy which has engulfed the Negro community must not lead us to a distrust of all white people, for many of our white brothers, as evidenced by their presence here today, have come to realize that their destiny is tied up with our destiny. They have come to realize that their freedom is inextricably bound to our freedom. We cannot walk alone.

As we walk, we must make the pledge that we shall always march ahead. We cannot turn back. There are those who are asking the devotees of civil rights, "When will you be satisfied?" We can never be satisfied as long as the Negro is the victim of the unspeakable horrors of police brutality. We can never be satisfied, as long as our bodies, heavy with the fatigue of travel, cannot gain lodging in the motels of the highways and the hotels of the cities. We cannot be satisfied as long as the Negro's basic mobility is from a smaller ghetto to a larger one. We can never be satisfied as long as our children are stripped of their selfhood and robbed of their dignity by signs stating "For Whites Only". We cannot be satisfied as long as a Negro in Mississippi cannot vote and a Negro in New York believes he has nothing for which to vote. No, no, we are not satisfied, and we will not be satisfied until justice rolls down like waters and righteousness like a mighty stream.

I am not unmindful that some of you have come here out of great trials and tribulations. Some of you have come fresh from narrow jail cells. Some of you have come from areas where your quest for freedom left you battered by the storms of persecution and staggered by the winds of police brutality. You have been the veterans of creative suffering. Continue to work with the faith that unearned suffering is redemptive.

Go back to Mississippi, go back to Alabama, go back to South Carolina, go back to Georgia, go back to Louisiana, go back to the slums and ghettos of our northern cities, knowing that somehow this situation can and will be changed. Let us not wallow in the valley of despair.

I say to you today, my friends, so even though we face the difficulties of today and tomorrow, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream.

I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: "We hold these truths to be self-evident: that all men are created equal."

I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will be able to sit down together at the table of brotherhood.

I have a dream that one day even the state of Mississippi, a state sweltering with the heat of injustice, sweltering with the heat of oppression, will be transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice.

I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character.

I have a dream today.

I have a dream that one day, down in Alabama, with its vicious racists, with its governor having his lips dripping with the words of interposition and nullification; one day right there in Alabama, little black boys and black girls will be able to join hands with little white boys and white girls as sisters and brothers.

I have a dream today.

I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight, and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together.

This is our hope. This is the faith that I go back to the South with. With this faith we will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair a stone of hope. With this faith we will be able to transform the jangling discords of our nation into a beautiful symphony of brotherhood. With this faith we will be able to work together, to pray together, to struggle together, to go to jail together, to stand up for freedom together, knowing that we will be free one day.

This will be the day when all of God's children will be able to sing with a new meaning, "My country, 'tis of thee, sweet land of liberty, of thee I sing. Land where my fathers died, land of the pilgrim's pride, from every mountainside, let freedom ring."

And if America is to be a great nation this must become true. So let freedom ring from the prodigious hilltops of New Hampshire. Let freedom ring from the mighty mountains of New York. Let freedom ring from the heightening Alleghenies of Pennsylvania!

Let freedom ring from the snowcapped Rockies of Colorado!

Let freedom ring from the curvaceous slopes of California!

But not only that; let freedom ring from Stone Mountain of Georgia!

Let freedom ring from Lookout Mountain of Tennessee!

Let freedom ring from every hill and molehill of Mississippi. From every mountainside, let freedom ring.

And when this happens, when we allow freedom to ring, when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children, black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual, "Free at last! free at last! thank God Almighty, we are free at last!"


Each of what I bolded shows what is happening in Malaysia. Or what people are fighting for. I hope we would reach the sentence of what was hoped 50 years ago by this great man. No time has elapsed from his dream to ours. Its the same and I wish Malaysia will change for the better. If there's change in America, there can be change in Malaysia too.

Yoga is out, the Fatwa is in!


Now its YOGA!

Anything else Mr. Religious Authority? I mean it was fork and spoon then plates. Then it was raiding in people's private homes. Next it was films. And now its Yoga.

What next Qipao?

Seriously, what is so wrong in learning an exercise that helps maintain many of your body organs to function properly and allows you to live longer healthyly? I mean its not like we have a statue of a certain God, neither are we saying any words or chanting any rhymes as we do it. The positions have been practised since 3000BC, regardless whether it was under the Hindu concept or not. I find the practice very important in once life to built stronger bones so that you dont wilt as you age and it allows you to control your breathing, which most TCM and now MP(Medical Practioners a.k.a Doctor)tells you to do. Yoga has many advantages and if I were to list it out, my blog might not end. Every organ, bone, skin, veins, blood vessels are well represented in the moves of the yoga positions in order to obtain the upmost benefit of it.

Can this Fatwa people name me one person, just one person who has come out of the religion of Islam all after going for few Yoga classes. If so I would like to meet him/her and give him/her a mouthful. How in the world, does someone loose their "keimanan(faith)" in God all after some simple healthy exercises? Which person in the right frame of mind is like that? And if so by Hell's will someone of that low faith existed does so, how is it fair that the whole Muslim community shall now no longer practise it?

I know that as religious preacher and one that holds the higher authority, you are to borne the responsibility of shedding on good light to your fellow brothers and sisters about what is wrong and what is right. But in this global world and where everyone is getting smarter, you need to have concrete explanation on why you come up with such devastating idea. We want the reasons of doing so. Dont just give us the shit that 'because we said so'. Nobody lives in that self-reclude world anymore. People want answers, people want to know why. If you have solid reasons, sit down and talk and discuss like true Muslim bretherens. Pointing finger at one somethign and saying it should not be done as such without any reason at all, is not something I wish to follow. And I seincerely believe many others are of the same mind.

Last Sunday, the famous columnist who I have the upmost respect of Ms. Zainah Anwar had her say on this issue on her article dated 2/11/208. Here she said that we should sit down and discuss it and she does write on about how the Kulim MP puts his religion before anything else and that a Professor at IIUM said that Muslims are to easily swayded and this should be stop. For a Proffesor, he clearly seems delusional and not talking based on reality facts. For one who is given the term 'Proffessor' ois expected to carry that title with upmost respect and self expresses with sold proof of facts and are very far sighted. Apparently, this is not the case. Yes, he has the right to state his opinion, but please with logic. How is it that we are swayed? I would rather say, we are very receptive towards new culture. And the great beauty of Islam is it can be practised in whichever way we wish as long as it conforms to text in the Quran. And I dont belive the Quran said we cant do Yoga.

Anyways, rather then hindering healthy activites for their Muslim conuterparts, dont this Fatwa people have better things to do? Like prouncing on people's private property to nab solicit affairs or like going from one place to another nab youths who are making love then war. Dont this people have death, marriage and poverty issus to be busy with. And here are this wonderful people who takes taxpayers money to come up with some sod off plan to hinder healthy activites all because its not Islam based. How you want yoga to be practised by its people now? Where the 'purda' or 'burqa' and do it? Will that satisfy them? Or do they want the Muslims to just sleep around all day and continuously dream of a future that will not happen if they wake up and start doing something about it? If that is their sense of Yoga, then well Mr.Religious Authority, you are one screwed up person in a screwed up organisation.

I have few suggestions here for you:

1)Either the bunch of old man you all are better go reality check classes and know what is needed to be done actually when being in that organisation, rather then comming up with rubbish fatwas.

2)Hire the ex-Perlis Mufti to head your organisation. He has more sense of the current situation around the world and he has better knowledge and interpretation of the Quran than you bunch of narrow minded, rigid and incompetent people that you all are.

3)Read more and learn how to adapt to the current world system and be more careful when you choose your fatwas.

4)Oh yah! Try getting feedbacks from public(in public i mean the 27 million population of the country, not just your workers in your organisation) before doing anything ridiculous as this.

Surprise me for your next take. Actually, I dont know what else I can be surprised with. Stupidity never fails to discontinue.

(ps: Try reading Yoga for Dummies, it might help)

If I Were A Girl

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy

I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong


But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (and you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…


This song is so true to its words. I know my recent past post was talking about not understanding girls, but when I heard this song by this five time Grammy Award singer a.k.a my girlfriend, Beyonce my blood just carried the words throughout my entire body. The video clip represents the essence of this song. Yes, if she were a boy she would know the shit things and the jerks of an ass guys can be. Although, this does not very much happen in Asia compared to America but heck, its a global world.

Anyways, it is sad to note guys these days are no more the gentleman their fathers and grandfathers once were. We are more ruthless now, we care less about ladies feelings and we do as we please. But I think I would like to reiterate that, man has never changed. I think woman has been taken granted all the while. They are left waiting for their man at the end of the day, whether he remains loyal to her or not. Woman has always been pushed around by their man. Why do we do it? Why has it been practised so? Why even amongst our own species we compete to show the superior gender?

This love song shows that if a girl was a boy, how she would have made things differently, how she knows that it would hurt the girl when doesn't talk to her or when he is seen with another woman. The words portrays how if she was a boy, she will make things different by appreciating the 'other' more. Yes, I am a male. But I do not condone this kind of act. Man have their rights, but playing a girl as if their like some blow-up dolls is not the way to go.

Frankly speaking, I would like to also have a second version of this song too. I would like it to be called "If I were a girl". You know why? Because I want to portray the way women are. No longer are they sweet and nice. No longer are they elegant or demure. Most of them think they are big time thugs. They ask for equality, but they have no idea that with that responsibility follows. Girls these days are not like their mothers and grandmothers anyways.

Here's my own lyrics to this song. Listen to Beyonce's song prior to reading below and then you can relate to the song.

If I were a girl,
Even just for one day,
I'd swiftly wake up in the mornin',
And contemplate on my Jimmy and Manolo,
Shop shoes with the girls,
And give hints at the boys,
Swipe the credit card at where I wanted,
And I'd never get confronted for it,
'coz I know Brad'll come to me.

If I were a girl,
I think I could understand,
How it feels to love football,
I'd swear I'd be a better woman,
I will comment less,
Cause I know how it hurts,
When you loose the game you want it,
Cause she's stalking you for credit,
And everything you had got mortgaged,
If I were a girl (TM)


Somehow I still find that the song Beyonce created was unbeatable and is just so fantastic. I hope boys would be more what she sang for. Lets not put our gender to shame, gentleman.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Girls

Girls I tell you. Its either you love 'em or hate 'em. I think that quote rings a shrill bell in my ear. I like this girl, and she has a boy friend. I like that girl and she doesnt have a boy friend but not interested to be with anyone for now. I tell you, I really feel like swearing now. Its as if some divine powers are telling me not to be with anyone(maybe its a Forever Single Curse-if there's one). Since my last ex, I have yet to be with anyone. I cant seem to connect well with anyone, and the one's I can mostly already have people that they like or they hate so they like no one. I really feel like swearing now.

WHY GOD??? WHY???

Probably, he thinks I am better suited for an arrange marriage(like those ancient practices that I use to find it stupid-I guess karma does come around). Maybe I am just hallucinating and not letting myself open up to people? Could it be? Oh damn it! I never knew, wanting to be in some damn relationship is so difficult. Or am I making it difficult?... I tell you taking up law a s a proffession makes me think and rethink what I think over and over again. I am getting paranoid because of it, thank you very much. Is it that hard to be in a relationship. I guess not being in one for the last two years, it is difficult for me to start a new one. Maybe it takes time. But seriously how long?

However, although I find myself writing all those down, I know I am a strong independent guy who knows that he does not need a lady to run his life. But I guess I do feel only with a girl, life will be more straight and better.

Oh fuck la!